"unmeshable"

today fucking sucked my elongated ball sacks a la cisco adler. i hate people and i hate the fucking holidays.

so this bottom portion of the post i'm writing on a completely different day just because i didn't feel like making a new post. i figured i'll write all things christmas related in this one post since i think christmas is stupid (i hate the religious connotation behind the holiday, and how people place such huge expectations on what is essentially just another day). i do enjoy the company of family and friends, as well as the mounds and mounds of food people cook for the holidays just as much as the next person, but... i don't know. something about holidays (and the word itself, "holiday", ew) just turns me off! (ugh! as if! whatever!)

i'm looking forward to new years eve though. i'm hoping to get shitfaced beyond belief and make bad decisions all through the night and into the new year. and hopefully i won't remember any of it the next day. so excited!!!! i've been eating super healthy and completely changed my eating habit, which led to myself losing about ten pounds. (a little less than 10, but a little more than 5...) and i love it! i look good naked. (lol) but i still want to lose more, so i'm a little wary of alcohol at the moment, but it won't be so bad if it's just for one night....

right?! hollaaaaa.