why does everything feel so complicated? and is it? or am i just making it complicated? i don't even know any more. just shoot me now and let's get it over with. i just keep thinking... "why me?" and then realize that really, i don't have it so bad. it's just all in how i perceive things and how i react to situations. woe is me. i wish i didn't give a shit. i thought i didn't, but i guess i do. i have issues.
i don't like to admit it but it hurts too much, i can't deal with it. i hate myself for it. out of foolishness i hurt everyone, including myself. i guess there's nothing i can do. we make all kinds of decisions throughout our lives... and we have to live with the choices we make. i wish i had a shoulder to cry on.
11 years ago
