socially, i realize i'm stuck up and quite bratty/snobby but i see no reason to change this about myself. i aim to please myself... and myself only (usually, not always). this is something i consistently ponder about: is it a result of a series of unfortunate events that occurred in childhood, or is it just who i am, genetically coded to be this way? (nature vs. nurture?). is who i am as a person today dictated by my past experiences, or by my dna? and in the end, what does it matter? negatively or positively, my snobbery only affects me. i don't easily put my guard down for anyone, i only have a handful of people i consider my real friends (and vice versa), and if i don't like you for one reason or another, i'll continue to dislike you unless you prove me wrong. cross me and i will despise you with an obsessive passion, even though all it would take to mollify me would be one sincere apology.
why i am writing this novel on my nature is beyond me. i think it's because i feel i have been wronged by someone i thought was a friend, and now i am bothered and irked. (my irritation exacerbated by the lack of sleep i've had throughout the past week).
11 years ago
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hannie banans. i'm gonna miss our wednesdayyyssss. which mean! we're just gonna have to move it to another day. :) <3 <3 <3
buahaha. perhaps that is why we are friends :)
I wouldn't call it snobbery...but more so selective socializing?
Sometimes I get caught up on in my own thoughts and can't be free when it comes to ppl. I've learned that one cannot trust most ppl, but at the same time one must learn how to cut people a break, not be so emotionally attached to every single person you meet, and not think too much about the situation. But naturally, I'm so emo, and get hurt easily which is why I keep my distance from most people and would rather keep to myself most of the time. Perhaps this is also why we are so horrible at keeping in touch as well, hahaha. I love you regardless!
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