Fatty Fat McFatty

looking through older pictures from when i was living in boston, i can't help but wonder... WHAT THE FUCK MOTHERFUCKERS!?! i was so skinny! but at the time i would complain to anyone and everyone about how "fat" i was. and i think that's what landed me in the current situation. karma probably came back to bite me in the ass, and that it did. now i am looking like a blob. i am disgusting. i need to stop taking up space on earth and die.

kidding, no need to die. but having had a time when i was wearing size 24 jeans, i can't help but lament the fact that i am one lazy ass homegirl at home. i am wearing 26s now, which i will admit is not a big size at all - but because my frame is so small (coming from a family of tiny little asian women) it looks like i am fat. well i am. a butterball. tub of lard. sumo wrestler. i am looking pretty rough.

so i have decided, once again, to lose weight really fast in a small amount of time through a controversial and questionable method i've come to know and love. i mean how else would i do it? by eating healthy and exercising on a regular basis? psssshhh, pleeeaaaaaase.

i thought i was over obsessing about my physical attributes, but turns out not! working at a place where you're constantly judged based on the way you look is taking a toll i suppose. but it's otay i kind of need to start caring, desperately lol.